Hayley Matto

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 1 year, 11 months ago

Ignoring myself is Easy I’m selling my soul again. And no- No one’s making me do it. Not a magical genie who prophesied the idea or a devil manipulating me […]

Celia replied 1 year, 11 months ago

Aw Hayley, I felt this. Beautifully written but so much truth and I am sure many can relate. You take care and maybe try to give you a little attention every now and then 🤍
- Hayley Matto replied 1 year, 11 months ago
  
  Thanks so much Celia! 💗 To be fully honest this was an older piece that I have been itching to revisit and revamp to make more current, had fun with the wave *motion* ha, I appreciate the kind well wishes!!!
River Joy replied 1 year, 11 months ago

Awesome piece Hayley, the formatting adds so much to the piece. It’s visually gorgeous as well as the writing. Really great stuff.
- Hayley Matto replied 1 year, 11 months ago
  
  Thank you so so so much River!!! I had this one written in an old notebook years ago with this pattern, but the first draft I did online I wasn’t in love with. But I think I finally got it here! So glad you enjoyed.

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

Camouflage Grief never stops. She simply camouflages herself in different forms, daring you to challenge facing it, day after day. Sometimes sexy and […]

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

Addiction I’M SORRY my depression consumed us. I’m even more sorry yours didn’t. If it had we could have been over a lot sooner. Not that I wanted an end at […]

Paul Stewart replied 2 years ago

Oh my, Hayley. This is…raw and brutal in places to read. Proper bleeding out on the page/screen writing. My own experiences of addiction and it’s hold ring many truths…even if I’m coming from a different angle. Brave and courageous writing…Well done for writing, sharing and working through this all!
- Hayley Matto replied 2 years ago
  
  Thank you so very much Paul, it’s not been the easiest year moving through these emotions, but it’s been super healing in sharing, writing it out of me & connecting with others! I am sorry this resonates as I know these aren’t easy feelings to go through but I appreciate you reading and commenting this thoughtful response.
  - Paul Stewart replied 2 years ago
    
    Oh you’re absolutely welcome, it was kinda a bitter joy to read. Like, I was part thinking “I’m so sorry you’ve been through this” and then “yes, Hayley, let it out!” Since figuring out I was addicted, I have realised I understood so many people who suffered from addictions…so I always feel strong sense of pride and empathy towards people fighting them off. And messy breakups and relationships in the mix can’t make it any easier. I fortunately didn’t lose my relationship or didn’t need to give it up because of my addiction… but…it was close. So, yeah, I felt so much of this, from my own view. Good for you though, I also agree, that writing and sharing, helps and is cathartic. Sorry for big massive reply!

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

Enchantress of your Emotions You were my constant. Until you weren’t. Not unlike losing a job suddenly. Except you didn’t yield me a paycheck, tax return, […]

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

Assuage Today I’m Angry. My therapist would be so proud. I’m not an angry person, my defaults typically land me somewhere between Sad & Grief-Stricken. But […]

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

The Flavor of your Affections You drank to numb yourself out from your own mind & thoughts. I drank for all the ones you shared. The ones that slipped […]

Hayley Matto wrote a new post 2 years ago

Deja Vu Do you get Deja Vu when I talk about you? Do your ears burn? Your heart hurt? Many of the greats have sang and sought to explain the emotional […]

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